Raven's Diary

So there you have it…through rain, lightning, thunder, food poisoning, fatigue and pain I stuck to it but a few days of feeling really crap but can’t explain what type of crap and I lose the dedication. Very sad about it as we were doing so very well I was really proud. The program became very hectic though, those 3 minute stints at a time were rather tough.

So what’s next? There’s always a next isn’t there? I have to do something to keep the guilt away. Eating is also a mission but one that is probably most difficult especially seeing as I bake almost weekly and finish the baked product within 3 days. Also trying to prepare 6 meals a day can get a bit much to handle.

But back to what next. Well tried skipping rope and boxing yesterday and it’s rather enjoyable and quick. Just a minute or 3 doing the activity and you’re gasping for air and you can feel something was worked. So I reckon we’re going to give this a try. I’d also like to get back into my fitness video’s. Rather enjoyed that too. Maybe a combination of different things whenever I feel like it. At least it will be something….

Suddenly it’s not getting easier anymore and the motivation is waning. Today is a rest day, thank heavens. The last few days have been very tough in all aspects; physical, mental and emotional. It can be very taxing on emotions when your heart wants to but your head and body is screaming NO!

We have come so far, two thirds of the way already and I’m thinking wow did I really do it and then I wonder will I complete it. The program has increased in intensity. Yesterday it was run 2 minutes walk 1 minute 8 times – we did it in the pouring rain. The day before it was running 3 minutes and although it was only for 5 times it was really rough.

The way I feel today I have no idea what I would have done if it was a running day, I don’t want to give up now but where do you draw the line? Have not received tomorrow’s workout plan yet so waiting in anticipation to see what’s going to be thrown at us.

Well well; with a pat on my back; I can shout gloriously that I have made it through 1 whole week of runner training! I am so proud and so surprised. It has gotten easier, much to my surprise, I thought I was going to take strain til the bitter end.

Yesterday was Day 7 of the program and involved a whole lot more running. 2 minute run 1 minute walk 6 times. My breathing is still very laboured and weezing-like but I managed to pace myself nicely so that I could do the whole program without stops or wanting to quit. The wanting to quit is always so near the top of my brain. But those mantra’s really work. I speak to myself the entire time, urging myself on, giving myself challenges – if I make it to take pole I can rest and then I make it and then it’s actually where we can have a walk rest.

There’s definitely a certain kind of pressure running with your husband that seems to be able to go on forever without strain. When I see him run out ahead with ease I feel sad that I can’t keep up but I know if I push that hard I won’t make the entire program. I am just really glad that we’ve been able to stick to this program together through all kinds of weather. We are literally working our lifestyle around making sure we do this, which is so great.

Today’s training is quite daunting. I think this is going to be a challenge and I’ve got to prepare myself mentally for it. Physically there’s not much you can do other than eat well, hydrate well and breathe through the pain.